Feelings..

Well, sorry people.. Long time never update le.. Today came and update you all on some recent happenings in my life..

Before I start off with anything.. I would like to thank a wonderful sister and dedicate this post to her.. This sister is none other than MEI YI..

I tell you hor, this sister is really a wonderful sister lehzz(not that other brother and sister not good).. Not only is she very encouraging, but she is willing to spend time late into the night to talk with me, a stubborn mule.. So touched.. Also, she showed me something which kinda cheer me up a little.. Too bad she wanted the thing back.. LOL.. I definitely enjoy her company and would like to spend more time with her, so patience with me and best of all, not overbearing at all; unlike some guy I know.. She and some few other people actually listens before commenting.. At least that is how I feel la.. So really thank God for placing this special sister into my life.. I believe as time goes by will see more good things about her de..

Okay.. Now to go on with today's topic.. Feelings.. Well, recently, I am being overwhelmed with a overwhelming amount of feelings.. Some Good, Some Not so Good..

The good ones would be from realizing how steady are my friends, helping me out when I'm in need and from having the chance to talk to Mei Yi, realizing, well, at least she cares..

The bad feelings I've gotten recently would be a flash-back of past experience which really shake me up a lot.. And from that, I also see how annoying a certain someone can be.. Already don't like him le, now even more don't like.. Don't know why, but just don't like the position the two of us is in right now.. Just don't seem right.. Everything he does and is entitled to do just don't seem right it my eyes.. As thought I think that he is not deserving like that.. May be true, may not be true, but one thing is for sure, I don't like what I'm going through now..

I feel as thought I'm going to go mad liao.. Every single waking moment now, I'm thinking of something, feeling something.. It just can't seem to stop.. The longer this goes on, the more discontentment I get.. The weird thing is that I feel that I'm being fueled with this discontentment of mine.. By no means is it some kind of Holy Discontentment, in fact, it feels like some kinda evil evil discontentment.. I just can't stand what I'm seeing now, and I feel that everything is just so wrong and it shouldn't be this way.. I'm unhappy about everything and everyone.. I don't trust anything, or anyone..

Now what I want is to find something, or someone, a human, that I can trust.. I'm sick and tired of people telling me to do this and do that.. You people make it sound like everything is my fault.. Well I tell you the truth.. It isn't.. I can't be wrong all the time, sometimes maybe, but not all the time..

Ultimately, I feel that everyone doesn't want me around and is out to get me.. I feel that everyone doesn't want me to do well despite them saying otherwise..

However, some part of me is telling me that it isn't true.. I sometimes see how steady my friends can be.. How willing a person is to spend time to talk to me late into the night.. I don't know what they are thinking when they are doing what they are doing.. However, despite my distrust to the people around me, very very deep down inside of me, there is still this little spark that wants myself to open up to and trust people again..

But heres the question.. WHO CAN I REALLY TRUST? Not even God seems to be worthy of my trust in him like many say he is now.. But because of the thing that Mei Yi showed me and set me to ponder about my situation, I think I would give it a try and just Wait.. Wait and see what would happen.. Just hang in there and wait for the good times that God has intended for me to come.. If not for Mei Yi and some of the other people that talked to me on Friday night, who knows.. I might have given up hope of what is installed for me in the future by God le.. Now if not for the sake of God or myself, I will do it for the sake of those that truly cares for me and wants to see me grow, whoever they might be.. I will take action very soon.. For now, I'd have to sharpen my focus first.. If not, I'd be like going to war with a blunt sword.. And one day I tell you, I will have my personal victory!!! I will hold myself to it.. I will convict myself to it.. And I will do it.. You all just wait and see.. You will be blinded by my Awesome-ness one day(extracted from Kung-Fu Panda)

Once again, Thank You Mei Yi for what you did for me thus far.. Really appreciate it..

The NOT SO ECONOMICAL Bee Hoon..

Got a SHOCKER of my life when I heard the price of this packet of Bee Hoon cum Mee that I bought for lunch just now.. $5.50 lehzz..

Normally, this packet of Bee Hoon cum Mee with prawn cracker, fish cake and a chicken wing would only cost me around like $4-$4.50..

Nowadays inflation so much that I can hardly breath liao.. Aiyo.. So pain sia my wallet.. Next time I don't want to eat economic Bee Hoon liao, NOT economic at all lor.. And the Bee Hoon and Mee they give is like so little.. Haizz.. Feel so cheated..

WOOT!!! Chocolate!!! WOOT!!!

WOOT!!! WOW.. The food competition was really fun I tell you.. Looking at people eat their food and playing with their food.

What caught my attention was how some people drank the chocolate fondue sauce just like that man (Vivian And Dennis).. I tell you hor, there people are my lovers now, so support the chocolate fondue sauce I make lor.. Yay..

A lot of the other people were very fun too.. Many things happened la.. All very interesting.. Pei Chyi, Geck Ting, Priss, Shirlyn, Zi Yang, Melvin, Chit Meng.. And many more, just to name a few..

But most of all, my lady of the day would have to be DA AMANDA.. REALLY REALLY THANK GOD FOR HER!!! Without her, I would not have being able to do anything right, maybe not anything at all.. Really very supportive and very nice.. I would like to dedicated this post to DA AMANDA yar.. Love this sister to bits and pieces man.. Very nice, must try..! You would love her too.. LOL..

Up Lifting..

You Know what? (By now you might be asking.. WHAT?)

Anws..

Ok.. I feel so light now.. NO.. Not the weight kinda light.. But the spiritual kinda light.. "Why lehz" you might ask.. Well, its cause I was able to pour out my heart felt feeling towards my people.. Meaning the people around me.. Had 2 chance to share it.. Once during my CG and the other while chilling out at MERLION PARK with some of my unit people.. It felt great to be able to say out all that you felt to the people around you, letting them know more about you and basically just opening up to them and letting come closer to you.. And when people are closer, they will know your weakness.. Either by you sharing or them observing.. But here is the good part.. Despite knowing your weakness in a certain area, these true friends listens to you and supports you, encouraging you all the way till God knows where..

This feeling is unlike anything in the world, cause not only do you let yourself feel at ease, but you also feel the love from other people around you.. Its truly a blessing to be in this family that was a God-sent.. Despite sometimes meeting up with certain issues, instead of avoiding it or having a bad attitude towards it, I'm encourage to settle it the right way, which is using the God's way.. "Ask yourself, What would Jesus do?".. LOL!!! Sounds familiar right? Learn from EngIt side de..

So.. What are you people waiting for? Open up and share your life with others.. Living a life by ourself is never fun.. In fact, its hard work..! And you don't get paid for it too.. So work so hard to conceal your life from others for what right? LOL..

Be a man/woman.. Do the RIGHT thing..!

Hehe.. Got into the Elective I wanted..

YES!!! Got into B&F (Banking and Finance).. Hehe.. My 1st choice lehzz.. So happy.. To make things better.. my GPA was oni 2.85 currently.. Same as Try.. Hehe.. She wanted to put it as her 1st choice but never put it the end; so she did not manage to get in.. I feel so bless man.. Did not believe I could get in at first because of my lousy GPA.. But I was well and truly bless by God.. He gave me what I wanted.. Thanks man..

CYL2..

Hi All.. This post will be about CYL2 (Challenge Your Limits 2).. First of all, the preparation for my game station was hard work I tell you.. Ever still I got onto the beach on Saturday night at 10pm++, I've being digging non-stop with my shovel.. All the way from night to morning, and the from morning till the end of the event. I have to thank Kai En, Jeremy and Augustine a lot as they did helped me dig up abit of my structures..

I tell you the truth.. I did so much digging for the event that now I feel that I'm more comfortable in the shoveling position.. Even got a injury from the shovel.. But oso nvm, just kept working.. Cause I'm doing all this for God.. And it should never stop.. Muahaha..

Also, I've got myself quite a tan.. NICE.. Oh.. Then in the morning when I was napping on the beach right.. A crab ran pass me.. Got a shock from it I tell you..

Lastly, I was so proud of Zi Yang and Joycelyn they all, TOP 4 team lehzz.. Haha.. Too bad did not win the event in the end cause they were match up in the tug-of-war with a SUPER-SIZED team.. Nonetheless, I still love everyone in the team.. However, I regretted not playing with them abit more when they came to my station.. Should have asked the whole team to get soaked and then roll in the sand and make themselves into like a mua-chi.. It would have being fun to see some of them looking like a mua-chi.. I would have loved it.. Hehehe..