New Year's Resolution!!!

Here yo! Long time no update from me.. So here a update.. The year has being a great one.. Filled with its ups and downs.. But I want to put that all behind me now.. Time to set myself up for the year to come..

Here are a few things that I want to achieve by the end of the coming year 2011:

1) Run a full marathon!

2) Train up my body so I can look good and feel good, while this will help me excel in my work which can be physically demanding too..

3) Grow even more in my openness; been opening up to brothers, but I have to put down my ego and be accountable with the sisters I work with in ministry too.. Got feedback I like to put everything on my own shoulders.. Can't say guys can only be open with guys only anymore..

4) Be more firm with the children..

5) Be someone that a brother can find counsel in..

6) Take initiative even more to avail myself for various things like family and ministry..

That's about it.. I will be striving to hit the goals that I've set.. And please help watch over me too.. Thanks people!

The cab home..

Was feeling tired.. So I decided to take a cab home.. Thank God for the taxi driver.. He is a believer too.. And though after reaching my place, I sat in the cab and talk to him about Christianity for what I believe to be an hour or so, and it being so late now.. I feel very refreshed.. The uncle is ready a spirit-lead man of God.. And I'm ready glad God place him in my life..

What the answer?

I've always wondered about what is the answer, the solution to many of my worries, questions and so on.. I've look far and wide for answers.. But the answer has always been in me.. The answer is Him..

A Saturday Spent in Camp

Yup.. Got confined this today in camp.. But don't get me wrong.. I did not do anything wrong or got confined for any bad reasons.. The reason I stayed in camp was because I was involved in the parade for the Change of Command for the Minister of MHA as a Guard of Honor (Those guys you see in white on National Day Parade).. Had to miss service because of this..

One of the greater moments was when everything has ended and the minister is taking his leave from the dinning hall.. I was holding the door for the guests.. Then the whole lot of Commissioners from the various Home-Team Uniform agencies and the minister passed by me through the door.. Wow.. What a sight.. But still I miss the fellowship with the people in church.. Oh well.. See you people soon..

Update for the past one month plus..

Hi people.. Its been a while since I last did any blogging.. I guess I should start updating since there are people still coming to this blog..

I would start off with my training.. The progress of things are smooth.. For my IPPT, I just shy of clearing it.. 4 more centimeters for my standing board jump.. Kinda wasted though, if this station was on par with my other stations, I would have being able to get a silver for my IPPT.. I guess I got to work extra hard now, since the dead-line is coming up.. But with God I can.. I can already see some improvement since a while back..

Relationship wise, I been gelling well with my bunk-mates.. Awesome people.. Thought that cannot be said for all my squad-mates.. There are just some people I do not like to be with.. But still, I have to get on with my life.. No use getting affected by these people..

Generally, the experience thus far has been a good one..

Church-wise, I find myself having trouble keeping up with things from all the busy schedules.. Driving lessons that form part of my training is the biggest problem.. some of the driving lessons in the weeks falls on Saturday.. And I find myself unable to attend Life-Group that has being recently moved to the weekends.. I also find myself coming to service later.. Meaning I don't get to mingle with people pre-service.. And when I do go for service, I am all but knocked out.. Tired is the word.. Finding rest in the Lord seems like a hard thing to do.. I have to find peace in the chaos and overcome all the distractions around me..

"Oh, my so downcast O my soul" is the phrase to use to describe my spirit condition now.. I find myself losing faith in my commitment with God.. And I know the right thing to do now is to commitment myself even more to God so as to regain my faith through actively doing something like how its best suited for me..

Time to buck up.. As I become more faithful, God will pour out His blessings onto me.. Meanwhile, let know that I should hang tight as God is with me, yesterday, today and tomorrow..

Careless..

I was careless today.. I drew $20 out of the ATM but forgot to take it with me.. Was at night.. Guess I was tired.. First time like that.. A bit heart pain.. Oh well.. Got to move on..

Happy Teacher's Day..

Had a pleasing surprise today when I when for HopeKids.. Apparently, Teacher's Day is somewhere around this date, and the children gave gifts to me and my partner.. How sweet are the kids right..?

God is with me..

Going back to camp soon.. God is with me.. I shall claim that.. I will not be crushed by temporal situations..

Full Stop..

Full Stop.. A simple dot.. Got to learn to put that dot in some areas of my being..

All Alone..

I feel all alone now.. Where is God when I am most in need of Him? Knowledge tells me that He is with me even if I can't feel it.. But my faith is low now.. I don't think I can hold on much longer.. Its like the weight of this world is crashing down on me.. Getting false accusations thrown left, right and center at me..

What can I do to relieve myself.. I do not know.. God help me..

Empowered!!!

Hey people.. Just thought that I came here to share something nice.. Though recently, the stress of passing my IPPT is building up, I must say that God is really good.. I trusted in Him.. And now, I can do three pull-ups, from the zero when I just when into training.. 3 down, 3 more to go.. Awesome man..

Birthday was spent in camp.. It was a memorable one.. My squad-mates celebrated for me by mixing a bowl of crushed dried foods together.. Things like biscuits and vitamin C pills, even protein powder.. Kinda dry.. Thank God also for a good friend of mine that despite the busy schedule, managed to find time to type out and hand-design a card for me..

I thank God for all these.. I thank God for my life.. Because this is the day the Lord has made, and I shall rejoice in it..

I need you more.. Cause I never want to go back to my old life..

Hey people.. Before I go to sleep.. I thought I'd share something here with you all..

The past ID conference was a good one.. The Kids Conference wasn't a smooth ride, but I will say it strengthen me even more in relation to working with these little children of God.. It also increased my burden for them and my conviction to do something about it.. What exactly? I need to fast and pray more to get a clearer picture.. But one thing is for certain.. I need to be more of a Man of God..

After the ID conference.. The words of this song keeps ringing in my head..

"I need you more, more than yesterday.. I need you more, more than words can say.. I need more than ever before.. I need you Lord, I need you Lord"

It goes on..

"More than the air I breath.. More than the song I sing.. More than the next heart-beat.. More than anything.."

I being meditating on these words.. Indeed.. All these things that I have encountered so far will not be possible if not for God.. If not for God, I would not be able to last whilst serving in ministry.. I would not be able to do anything fruitful..

A touch from God removes anythings that burdens me.. I hold this dearly to my heart.. How else can I last with so little sleep..? How else can I do thing anything with a faith that anything is possible..? Indeed.. A touch from is better than anything the world could offer..

The key of the song for me was this though..

"Cause I never want to go back to my old life.."

As I look back.. I now consider my old life not worth living.. This new life I have in Christ.. This new life that I worship a prefect God along with the people I serve and enjoy life closely with.. Through actively serving this God of mine.. God in turn, revealed the purpose for my life to me.. Be it during my student days, my current police days, and the days that I serve together with a team in the HopeKids ministries.. One thing.. Or should I say two.. Is certain.. To Love God, Love people..

I thank God for blessing me with the brothers around me.. You know.. I am confident that they will watch my back for me.. They are also people that I know I can have a good talk with.. And the team in the Kids ministries.. You people are like family..

With that said? Why would want to go back to my old life without God right?

God.. I need you more.. More than yesterday..

Update..

As the name suggested.. This post is going to be a update of the recent happenings in my life.. Can't sleep.. Not sleepy..

Anyways.. The first order of business.. I got into the Police Force! Its official now.. The papers are here.. June 8th will be my enlistment day.. Haha.. So, if you have anything you want to say to me, say it before then ba..

Next up.. I'm now in the NS group le.. Just transferred there from the TP group last Saturday.. Was a bit sudden.. But oh well.. I'm currently unsure of which group I'm going into as of now.. Got to meet Jeremiah to find out I suppose.. Nic says that Jeremiah will be like a "care-taker" for me for now.. Look forward to find out..

Anyways, even if I managed to find out the group that I'm going into, I will have to wait till next week before I can have time to meet them up.. That is because I will be serving full-time for the Kids' Ministry's "K-Konference".. Oh well, maybe can meet them on the Sunday evening ba if they don't have to book in for some reason.. Cause the "Konference" ends at 4pm on Sunday.. So excited.. I bet the "Konference" will be a great one, and the kids will enjoy and take something home from it..

Speaking of the kids.. I don't know where to start really.. I have this heart-felt delight that is just overflowing from my heart.. This batch of primary 2 kids, I have took them for around nearly 6 months now.. I can say that I have really seen them grow quite a lot.. And the bond I have with the kids are growing ever stronger.. Praise God for that..

I would like to specially mention a specific child here.. Yeep Yi Sian.. Yes, you guessed it.. She is Philothea Yeep Mei Yi's little sister.. This little girl ar, she has being coming to HopeKids for just about a month and a half or so up till now.. I must say that she really is a curious little girl.. She likes to ask lots of question.. Most of the questions requires me to choose to favor a specific person amongst the choices.. Haha.. Awkward.. That's why I tell her I love all the people because God loves all of them too.. Hope she will get it someday.. But at least she has found a good friend in Cheryl, Kelvin's younger daughter..

***Shout-Out to Mei Yi***
Jia You Mei Yi!!! God is moving in your household.. First you brought your sister to church, then the rest of your family will follow.. That is my believe! So don't give up and take action man.. Strike the steel while its still hot.. "Dai Tei Chen Re"..

Well.. That said.. The Yeep household isn't the only household God is moving in.. Recently, I'm having better quality chats with my parents as well.. Slow improvements.. But its better than none.. Praise God for that..

Not only so.. It seems that God is reconnecting me with a lot of my friends.. Better relationships with them also means I can have the chance to shower them with the love that God has ever so graciously showered on me..

So yar lor.. Recently I can see that I'm really blessed.. Though there are times that I've said things I shouldn't have said, do things that I've shouldn't have done.. God has still bless me with so much.. Thank you Lord for that..

With a stable job in my hands, and so many good friends around me that I know will support me when I'm down.. What else can I ask for right?

Well, now that the current stage of my life seem to be in-order.. I should start planning for the next stage of my life le.. Working hard, saving up and then settling down..

But that's topic for another day's entry.. Till the next time.. Cya!

An Awesome Sunday!!!

Hey.. Here to blog about whats up till now for today.. Today have being a really good Sunday! Really thank God that the transportation for Yi Sian, who is one of my care group de girls turn out alright..

The service and care-group themselves turn out quite okay too.. The kids were all quite well-behaved in general.. The boys NEVER fight!!! Haha.. Then also realised some points that I did well and some points that I have to improve for my service teaching.. Really thank God for this awareness, and Joey for being so supportive of it too, to help ask me to ask myself about it..

Then lunch was awesome man.. Got the chance to take care of a child de meal again.. Like father like that.. I kinda enjoy this.. Feels good to be taking care of people.. But they say I too protective le.. Haha.. Must learn to let the kids handle themselves.. I agree.. Haha.. Thank God man.. Haha.. No other words other than "Thank God" to describe the feeling le..

Keeping the Good things the Good things..

Went out to Suntec to meet up with Hong Teck just now.. Really thank God for this brother and his listening ears.. He also told me some stuff that I find to be really useful too..!

One thing that struck me the most is to learn to love myself more.. By that I don't mean those kinda egotistic self-adoration, but more of loving who God created me to be.. With that, I find that I really have to cut myself some slack sometimes.. I go too hard on myself sometimes, which in turn makes me feel lousy about myself, which will make me very defensive or doubt myself too much..

To everything, there will always be a good side and a side that can be improved.. And through the chat-up, we confronted the fact that I'm more of the type that will look at the side that needs to improved more.. I personally have to learn to see the good in things more..

Also, keeping the good things good.. Actually hor.. I'm not so bad de.. I got plenty of good traits.. But I have up till now let the situations around me lead me to think that my good traits are not that great.. What I was advice to do is to keep the good things good, and keep doing them.. And then to isolate the bad or the negative, and tackle them accordingly..

Lastly, I know that I don't really relate that well with the people around my age, but I realised that it isn't completely my fault too.. Its really too bad that our mindsets are different, but whose to say that anyone of us is wrong right? If they want to think like people their age, I can't fault them, cause its only normal.. And really there is also nothing wrong with myself having more foresight than the rest of my peers.. In fact, its a good trait.. So I shouldn't let myself feel so bad about it, and keep this good trait a good trait.. And then to learn to deal with my communication problems with my peers as a separate issue..

Awesome time spent.. Great insights..

Refreshing Week!!

Wow!!! I must say.. This past week (5 days to be precise) was super refreshing..! Thank God for that..

Its being a long while since I felt so alive.. So active.. And also very blessed.. For the duration of this past week, I have being working as a trail guide.. Though the actual hike was only span over three days, there was much preparation to be done.. So after all the preparation work was done, I lead the groups on hike on Wednesday and Friday, which is just now.. Have to rest ma.. So Thursday I took break..

Here comes the good part.. The hike was awesome.. Nature is so refreshing.. Beats working as a surveyor in the concrete jungle or some office jobs that requires us to sit in cubicles.. Even better is because of the people I was bringing along for the hike.. They were uniform group kids, so they had somewhat some experience in hiking, so they moved fast, and I was able to bring them off-trail too.. That's where all the good stuff is.. I would never bring newbies off-trail, considering the dangers.. And despite of the terrible weather, we pressed on; and under my experienced leadership, on one got hurt.. Hehe.. Oh well.. I would expect no less from myself..

Really thank God for the bad weather, made the trip tougher and more fun.. Even got extra pay because of the unexpectedly heavy rain..

I should do this more often..

Thank God

Wow.. Its being a while since I last posted hor.. Busy plus don't know what to write.. That's why..

But I want to give thanks to God, for during this period of time, there were good times and bad times.. But regardless, I thank God for seeing me through this times..

Also, I thank God, cause I got invited to attend the police interview..! Got the SMS by the recruitment center on Wednesday morning.. Was asked to attend the interview on Friday morning.. Such short notice hor.. Yar lor.. Still got much to prepare.. Very funny.. Cause while preparing today.. Saw lots of people doing the same thing too.. I think all signing up for police ba.. Even chatted up with two guys.. Really lehzz.. They really signing up for police.. How cool is that.. I bet the interview surely a lot of people de.. I'm thinking that they are doing it all in a day..

So.. I really thank God for all this things that happened to me.. For I know whatever happens, happens for the good of me.. So how was your time? Haha.. Keep me posted yar my friends.. I see you next posting.. Stay tuned..

What I'm thinking now..

Hi all,

Spending some time with God now.. Got this urge to write down my thoughts here..

Some of your may know that this period is a rest period for me.. Finally.. I found the answer.. As I was praying and reflecting about recent times, I realised that God has always being trying to tell me this.. That I need to calm down sometimes.. I get hyped up too easily as of now.. My feelings and emotions has got swayed quite easily in the past too..

Part of the reason why I'm so tired recently was that I was putting my heart into the things and people around me too much without putting that equal or more amount of heart into God's heartbeat.. I have being wanting to be the best that I could be and help out as many people as I could, and have been trying so hard..

I fail to notice that God is calling out to me and asking me to stop for awhile and go find rest in Him.. He tells me that I'm precious to Him too.. And He doesn't need me to be a big hero, or a very successful person in order for Him to accept me..

All the pieces linked now.. From the time back in February when I was thinking of some ministry matters and God dropped a Word into me, to the recent happenings He allowed to happen and the people that He put in my life.. All this make sense to me now.. I'm a child of God, He has touched my life from its very beginning, and the power of His touch releases me to worship Him..

Now I know.. I tell myself.. No more self-pity.. No more regrets.. No more excuses.. All these because I am His beloved child that He saved from all these by giving His one and only Son, Christ Jesus as a ransom..

No more rushing through life.. Time to slow things down a big notch and not "think too much" so much anymore.. My future plans are clear now.. Lets take it slowly a step by a time..

That is about all that I just thought.. By the grace the God I see.. Not just physically, but the plans He has for me too.. Praise the Lord..!

I graduated!!!

Yes its true, and I believe it..

Yes its true, I've graduated from my course of study!!! Praise the Lord!!! And thanks for all the prayers!!!

Bad night's sleep..

Had a bad night's sleep last night if any at all because the chiwawa that my bro bought back was crying, I think.. All night long..

Ministry today..

Hmm.. Did not went so well for me.. Messed up quite a lot.. Whats wrong with me man.. Time to take a rest and reflect..

Jesus said: "Let the children come"

Firstly, thank God that all the paper are done and I'm pretty much done with poly.. Gonna look forward and embrace the future..

Anyways.. Was thinking of some ministry matters just now, and God just told me this, "Let the children come"

I was thinking, why all of a sudden give me this word.. Yes, there were a few instances where Jesus actually said that if I remember correctly.. But I ask myself, how could I apply it today to myself at this current juncture of my life?

This word may at times be thought of as only relevant for children.. But hey, aren't we grown-ups also children of God? Thank God that I'm a child of God.. I believe that God is trying to remind me of this and telling me to go to Him like a child with a pure intention to want to know more..

I seem to have being thinking using my own head a little too often lately.. Its time I go to God for wisdom.. God, here I come!!!

CNY Money usage..

Hmm.. This year hor, I realised that the CNY money like keep coming in ar.. Like the most I had in quite awhile.. Thank God for God.. If not for Him.. I think I would have wasted it on some random stuff.. Would say that this year's money, every single cent of it was put to good use..

Yup.. Use finish le.. Haha.. And the CNY period haven't even officially end yet.. See yar all around yar..!

Btw, got a nice song to intro you all.. Enjoy..

Surprised..!

LOL!!! And I thought they were going to celebrate Mark's (Zhi Wei) belated birthday when Chan SMS me the plans.. I never truly thought that the Zhi Wei he was mentioning was me.. Luckily for him, I'm so innocent.. Haha!! But it felt weird of course.. Cause usually we don't associate Mark as Zhi Wei de.. But nevertheless I did not doubt cause it was Mark's birthday this past week..

Ok.. For those that do not know why my unit celebrated my 21st birthday almost seven months after my birthday, well, the brief story is that they thought that they did not put in much effort into the actual birthday back then.. Shall not go into details.. But seriously.. Almost forgotten about it le.. Cause back then was good too.. Got a number of well wishes and a very nice card from a "Lau Peng You".. Haha!!

So.. I was seriously stunned lor.. Seriously.. I think first time in church history that someone is really really stunned about their own birthday celebration.. Well cause I seriously didn't saw it coming for me like a freight-train.. Haha!! Thanks guys..

Beautiful Savior

Awesome version of the song Beautiful Savior by PlanetShakers from this guy on YouTube.. Enjoy..

Purpose in Life..

Hehe.. Purpose in Life.. Very important thing indeed..

Recently, I have finally decided on what I want my life's focus to be.. Though I believe it still needs some fine tuning.. But the main focus of my life's focus would be to build up a strong Next-Generation of Young Christian that is God-Loving and Word-Centered.. That meaning anyone younger than me, physically or spiritually.. I'm physically 22 years old and I have walked with God for 2 years now this year.. You do the math..

But to do that.. I myself will have to get my act together first.. Yup.. So I got to work even hard.. Humble myself even more.. Those young ones ar, their child-like faith never fails to amaze me..

What a Day..

Yo people.. Posting this from school.. My internet connection at home is down, just before my online project consultation somemore.. Scare me like crazy.. Called my lecturer and she told me since I've participated by phone then its okay and she will count as I've participated.. Thank God..

Kinda feels bored sometimes without the internet.. Very limited and inconvient too.. But I guess its a blessing in disguise.. Being able to focus more on my work and have more time to rest too.. Miss chatting online.. And its only been one day.. Argh.. How ar..? Don't if the guy come on Friday can fix it or not..

Test was horrible too.. Think the whole business got screwed by the tips that were given.. Oh well.. Got to work harder then..

Anyways.. I've came up with my first new year's resolution already.. It is to regain my former healthy life-style and become as fit as I used to be.. Or even better.. Hehe..

Alrighty.. Signing off now.. See You all around!

What a funny incident..

Just to share a funny little incident.. Today, while I was on the train to Tiong Bahru.. I was on the NEL.. Then I stood up and wanted to alight at Dhoby Ghaut.. Haha.. Wrong Station.. Too used to alighting there to go church le.. Haha..